He was looking at the mosque。 Shah Faisal Mosque was shaped like a giant tent。 Cars came and went�察�worshipers dressed in white streamed in and out。 We sat in silence�察�me leaning against the tree�察�Sohrab next to me�察�knees to his chest。 We listened to the call to prayer�察�watched the building s hundreds of lights e on as daylight faded。 The mosque sparkled like a diamond in the dark。 It lit up the sky�察�Sohrab s face。
Have you ever been to Mazar´i´Sharif�� Sohrab said�察�his chin resting on his kneecaps。
A long time ago。 I don t remember it much。
Father took me there when I was little。 Mother and Sasa came along too。 Father bought me a monkey from the bazaar。 Not a real one but the kind you have to blow up。 It was brown and had a bow tie。
I might have had one of those when I was a kid。
Father took me to the Blue Mosque�� Sohrab said。 I remember there were so many pigeons outside the masjid�察�and they weren t afraid of people。 They came right up to us。 Sasa gave me little pieces of _naan_ and I fed the birds。 Soon�察�there were pigeons cooing all around me。 That was fun。
You must miss your parents very much�� I said。 I wondered if he d seen the Taliban drag his parents out into the street。 I hoped he hadn t。
Do you miss your parents�� he aked�察�resting his cheek on his knees�察�looking up at me。
Do I miss my parents�拭�Well�察�I never met my mother。 My father died a few years ago�察�and�察�yes�察�I do miss him。 Sometimes a lot。
Do you remember what he looked like��
I thought of Baba s thick neck�察�his black eyes�察�his unruly brown hair。 Sitting on his lap had been like sitting on a pair of tree trunks。 I remember what he looked like�� I said。 What he smelled like too。
I m starting to forget their faces�� Sohrab said。 Is that bad��
No�� I said。 Time does that。 I thought of something。 I looked in the front pocket of my coat。 Found the Polaroid snap shot of Hassan and Sohrab。 Here�� I said。
He brought the photo to within an inch of his face�察�turned it so the light from the mosque fell on it。 He looked at it for a long time。 I thought he might cry�察�but he didn t。 He just held it in both hands�察�traced his thumb over its surface。 I thought of a line I d read somewhere�察�or maybe I d heard someone say it�此�There are a lot of children in Afghanistan�察�but little childhood。 He stretched his hand to give it back to me。
Keep it�� I said。 It s yours。
Thank you。 He looked at the photo again and stowed it in the pocket of his vest。 A horse´drawn cart clip´clopped by in the parking lot。 Little bells dangled from the horse s neck and jingled with each step。
I ve been thinking a lot about mosques lately�� Sohrab said。
You have�拭�What about them��
He shrugged。 Just thinking about them。 He lifted his face�察�looked straight at me。 Now he was crying�察�softly�察�silently。 Can I ask you something�察�Amir agha��
Of course。
Will God。。。 he began�察�and choked a little。 Will God put me in hell for what I did to that man��
I reached for him and he flinched。 I pulled back。 Nay。 Of course not�� I said。 I wanted to pull him close�察�hold him�察�tell him the world had been unkind to him�察�not the other way around。
His face twisted and strained to stay posed。 Father used to say it s wrong to hurt even bad people。 Because they don t know any better�察�and because bad people sometimes bee good。
Not always�察�Sohrab。
He looked at me questioningly。
The man who hurt you�察�I knew him from many years ago�� I said。 I guess you figured that out that from the conversation he and I had。 He。。。 he tried to hurt me once when I was your age�察�but your father saved me。 Your father was very brave and he was always rescuing me from trouble�察�standing up for me。 So one day the bad man hurt your father instead。 He hurt him in a very bad way�察�and I。。。 I couldn t save your father the way he had saved me。
Why did people want to hurt my father�� Sohrab said in a wheezy little voice。 He was never mean to anyone。
You re right。 Your father was a good man。 But that s what I m trying to tell you�察�Sohrab jan。 That there are bad people in this world�察�and sometimes bad people stay bad。 Sometimes you have to stand up to them。 What you did to that man is what I should have done to him all those years ago。 You gave him what he deserved�察�and he deserved even more。
Do you think Father is disappointed in me��
I know he s not�� I said。 You saved my life in Kabul。 I know he is very proud of you for that。
He wiped his face with the sleeve of his shirt。 It burst a bubble of spittle that had formed on his lips。 He buried his face in his hands and wept a long time before he spoke again。 I miss Father�察�and Mother too�� he croaked。 And I miss Sasa and Rahim Khan sahib。 But sometimes I m glad they re not 。。。 they re not here anymore。
Why�� I touched his arm。 He drew back。
Because´´ he said�察�gasping and hitching between sobs�察� because I don t want them to see me。。。 I m so dirty。 He sucked in his breath and let it out in a long�察�wheezy cry。 I m so dirty and full of sin。
You re not dirty�察�Sohrab�� I said。
Those men´´
You re not dirty at all。
´´they did things。。。 the bad man and the other two。。。 they did things。。。 did things to me。
You re not dirty�察�and you re not full of sin。 I touched his arm again and he drew away。 I reached again�察�gently�察�and pulled him to me。 I won t hurt you�� I whispered。 I promise。 He resisted a lit tle。 Slackened。 He let me draw him to me and rested his head on my chest。 His little body convulsed in my arms with each sob。
A kinship exists between people who ve fed from the same breast。 Now�察�as the boy s pain soaked through my shirt�察�I saw that a kinship had taken root